Even though just yesterday I consumed two bars of Crunchie.
*burp*
Aaargh what is wrong with me?! It's like I've become this unstoppable eating monster. All day long, it's munch munch munch. It would be fine if all I ate was, umm, celery and carrots and boiled fish (ew). But no, it's nasi goreng this, and maggi goreng that. With a side of cheesey wedges, if I'm feeling peckish.
It's okay if I'm on campus, because I at least use that energy for the marathons to class. But when I'm at home on weekends? 3 hotdogs for breakfast at 1 pm, sleep, nasi ayam for lunch at 3 pm, sleep, more nasi ayam for supper at 6 pm, sleep....
It's no wonder, this semester, I've ballooned up to 47kg again. I can feel (and see) that extra flab settling gently on my tummy. I've already shelved away my jeans in despair, resigning to the fact that I can no longer wear it without walking crab-like due to its extra-snug fit. My form-fitting baju kurungs from PJ? HAH! Yeah, I'll wear those, if I'm in the mood to flash my VPL and gain some cheap-o publicity. And there's a superficial reason I've been wearing my tudung more labuh these days. Yup, all of these are constant reminders of my current, insatiable craving for that four letter word: f-o-o-d.
Hurm. The last time I was this weight, it was during my short semester in Nilai, when I was in my crazy blogging frenzy mode. Then I went down to 43kg again throughout last semester. You see, when I'm not 47kg, I'm 43kg. And my weight depends on my level of happiness. When I'm happier, I eat more, and the digits on the kitchen scale go up. When I'm sad, I eat once a day, or not at all, and the numbers dip. So wanna know how happy I am? If you can't tell from the goofy grin on my face, fetch the scales.
So, in my roundabout way, what I'm trying to say is that, in the end, it's not how you look or how much you weigh that counts, but how happy you are. Right? :)
Though I shudder to think how I'll fit into the graduation robes when the day comes... or if the stage will even be able to handle my weight...
Hm... Strange
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hehe same here! when i'm bored in studio, out comes a choki choki tube. i eat one every day, and now, when I doesn't it feels weird. I pass the shops in the center and, zombie-like, walk inside, grab a chocolate bar, pay and walk out. every time I pass. Doesnt help that our studio has a supply of jajan to fill our every bored moment.
But you're lucky you gain weight. Mine stays resolutely at 44.5. And at home theres usually no food, so I actually lost some in the holidays:( Ive been this weight for about 5 years now arghhh!
you can't gain weight. you CANNOT. because you're height-challenged and inch-deficient.
on the other hand, you could simply roll from class to class like a large ball -- peeps would get the hell outta yer way
maryam: You can eat chocolate every day without worrying that one day you might not fit your jubah! Now who's the lucky one here? :P And don't worry about your weight because you already look perfect :)
unokhan: height-challenged and inch deficient? Sweet of you to hammer it home so delicately /:-) Hmmm... even if I were to eventually become a ball of flesh, I wouldn't roll to class. Who needs all that attention? ;-)
what i wonder is that if ever they'll have the grad robes your size :P
what~!? isu penambahan berat badan tercatat di sini jua? what's going on with the world?? hehe. glad to see your writings again. been gone for a while havent you?
my body weight however doesnt really have anything to do with my mood..it just go up and down according to how i eat. sometimes when im busy i'd skip my meals, it'll go down a kg or two in three days. i'll blow up if i eat normally, tho. so i cant really practise moderation in my eating...argh.
btw, been waiting for you to come online cuz i'd like to know what you think of this post of mine:
http://ginny-uninterrupted.blogspot.com/2009/01/alaf-21-ew.html
your sister came and commented already. *^^*
I know this is like sudden... but u've been tagged. huhu~
anisah is fat now! ahahaha!!
ok la tu 47kg..7kg lighter compared to my weight when i was in highschool...hehehe!!
so you eat more when you're happy, yeah? imagine what happen after your marriage? =))))))
btw hey, why i never see you around these days?
you nak ipod nano tak? im thinking of selling mine..
Can't say no to chocolate...
Yeah, that's a downside to being vertically challenged, I'm afraid. Sometimes if you put just a kg or two and people comment that you're 'berisi' hehehe...
Eat as you wish.and be happy. :)
asyraf: either way, I think I'll end up having to adjust my robes, anyway ;-)
Hanna J Potter: Isu penambahan berat badan tercatat di mana jua, dan blog saya pastinya tidak terkecuali! Heheh! :D Yeah, I read your post, and LOVED it. It made me cackle in glee, then quietly depart from your post without leaving a comment due to an overwhelming feeling of inferiority ;-)
Kystina: Duely noted! Do I know you, btw? /:-) I notice we come from the same school!
Megat: You were 52kg when you were in school?! What HAPPENED?! heheh! ;-) Eh, I'm still around campus la. But I haven't bumped into Econs people in a LONG time. After my wedding, my husband and I will grow fat and old together. Teehee!
Terra Shield: Either 'berisi' or 'sihat', with a knowing smile and a pat on the arm! Gargh! What is the point of voicing out such observations, besides annoying the heck out of a person?
Hanim: Heehee! :D
i was 54kg..the most is 60kg during holidays, but still, pretty good..now im 75kg..hehehe!! i was really active in sports during high school..then after school theres a 6 months holiday right..its like a culture shock, you know, from being active in sports to staying at home doing nothing but sit in front of the computer with coke, pringles and many more..what do you think happen? tadaa! im putting on weight, and still counting..im afraid i might reach the 100kg ceiling..imagine what will happen? i'll be a chic skunk? i'll die the very second..haha! my parents are teasing me like hell now for being overweight, so i need to lose some..60kg will be good..
i think you are the only one that will grow fat after marriage..haha!!
kejam much asyraf? pffft.
you're adorable! dont worry much.
I saw you and your friends during RANtai exhibition that day.
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